My Inspiration

"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water." Psalm 63:1 (NIV)

Monday, April 27, 2009

Back in the saddle

When I posted my last blog entry over a year ago I had no idea the impact it would have on my life. How cut off from the world, my thoughts and emotions it would make me but I was running. Running from the demons and trying to keep my sanity at the same time. I had been found, my perfect world shattered and in order to maintain what little composure I had left I had to sign off and walk away from the best therapy I had received over the past two years of hell I had been living through.

Now I'm back and I'm not running any more. I've come to grips with my demons and am actively working them out. It's a daily process but one that I know I can live up to and succeed at as long as I keep my eye on the prize.

I have grown from being a victim to being a victor and now I am an advocate. I won't let all that I have been through be for naught. I'm gearing myself up to step out there and make a difference in the life of someone else who is going through what I have gone through. I will advocate for the broken down, battered and abused women and children of this world. I won't sit back in silence because I'm not going through it any more. As long as one person is still living under physical bondage, fear, isolation, depression and emotional purgatory at the hands of another person what right do I have to turn a blind eye?

God brought me through this for a purpose and I shall fulfill it. According to His word: "...We are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us." Romans 8:37 (AMP)

I have gained a victory through Him who was my strength when I was weak and my light in the darkness when I was lost. "... I am the light of the world. He who follows Me will not be walking in the dark, but will have the Light which is life." John 8:12 (AMP)

His word is filled with truth beyond my greatest comprehension but as I live each day I get closer and closer to Him and my knowledge grows deeper and deeper and my faith gets stronger and stronger.

I speak His Words to keep myself encouraged, I pray his words to keep myself protected and I try to live His words to make my life have meaning and purpose. Through it all, every trial, tribulation, or stumbling block the enemy chooses to toss my way I stand strong in knowing that " weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue that shall rise against you in judgment you shall show to be wrong. This [peace, righteousness, security, triumph over opposition] is the heritage of the servants of the Lord [those in whom the ideal Servant of the Lord is reproduced]; this is the righteousness or the vindication which they obtain from Me [this is that which I impart to them as their justification], says the Lord. " Isaiah 54:17 (AMP)

I am back!!!